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  1. Keith Whyte, Executive Director of the National Council on Problem Gambling said: "Many more gamblers move towards skill-based games, prefering those games rather than random typed games. Especially - Sports Betting - that is one with huge addiction problem. Sports betting carries a huge risk for addiction. Why? Because you believe the outcome is primarily based on your skill, and you think you're a very skilled player. The more you play you think the better you get - and then you think it's the better less likelihood for you to lose! Even if you've lost in the last 20 or 50 times - people and especially those at risk for addictions - will think 'if I can just keep on playing I know I'm gonna win because my skills are going to overtrump the randomness'. It can encourage persistence - way beyond limits - you set time and money - you become preoccupied with chasing that win - the more you think your skills will affect the outcome." Check it out here:
  2. 13th of June 2017 - Decided to STOP

    Today was the NBA Finals Game, and Golden State won the game. I'd like to except what went inside my mind: So on Sunday there were several WNBA games, I remember following up with NY-Seattle game, initial line 158.5 - during the 1st half line goes up to 170.5 but then drops to the 159.5 only to get back to 170.5 by the end of the 3rd quarter. Now the "buy low sell high" approach would say 170 is far by 12 pts from 158 but this was the lowest opening line among all the 3 games in that day ... eventually I took the UNDER 171.5 prematch in the last WNBA game for that day between Minnesota and Dallas. This was a winning bet Why am I saying this? Because psychologically speaking I've become so obsessed with these numbers or guesses what would happen.... so yeah, Game 5 in the NBA Finals, opening line 230.5 - didn't place any bet - wakes up early in the morning to follow up with it - see the line going up to 240, dropping to 229 and reaching 240 by halftime ... same scenario like the WNBA one. What did I do? Bet £500 on the Under 240 - it ended with 249 points.... but I was quite numb about it, I am not too sure why I did what I did there ... I think it's because prematch I was sure this would go under because Games 2, 3 and 4 went over and usually the last games go under (and I believed it was the final game)..... See 11-June-2017 (WNBA) and 13-June-2017 (NBA) for your own reference http://www.oddsportal.com/basketball/usa/nba/results/ http://www.oddsportal.com/basketball/usa/wnba/results/ --------------------------------------------------------------------------- So I deposited another £270, took a 1.10 favorites in Badminton when it was live odds with 1.80: http://www.oddsportal.com/badminton/indonesia/superseries-indonesia-open-mixed-doubles/fischer-nielsen-joachim-pedersen-christinna-tang-chun-man-tse-ying-suet-bDNbMEK1/ The favorites lost, and I had no knowledge in Badminton - I only know that a 1.10 favorite is a heavy favorite, but looks like the odds can be tricky as always..... --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Eventually, I turned my Ecopayz account purpose to non-gambling, I didn't need to close it - I just cannot use it for gambling purposes any longer - so it's no longer effective for me to use it. The only way I can now deposit funds is via bank transfer, but this can only happen M-F during working hours (one of the reasons why Bitcoin is becoming an alternative) and it could take hours or even 1-2 days until it gets credited and there is also a fee involved with sending it - so basically I discouraged myself as much as I could to cut any access to instant & fast betting. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Overall, I am still "up" from betting in 2017 by something around £3,000 plus the $900 Vegas bet in January - but this has no blessing in it - and if I will deduct the losses from 2016 - then I would come up with a very big negative result. I think for me the obsession with gambling, the time it's stealing from my life, watching sports events, looking to bet as much as possible - or thinking about it - instead of doing things to improve my own and my family life - it's just not worth it. And I could win $50,000 today - what would prevent me from getting into losses like these?! And even if I keep myself limited and bet only what I can afford to lose - is it fun? is it recreational? Do I enjoy it? No .... I could have spent time with my wife, or going into the gym and lose weight and exercise, stay fit, watch movies, travel or what's not - so why lock myself in such a prison? That's what I feel it is. Do I see the end of gambling for me now? I don't know ... I tried to close all avenues to quick deposits as well as limit the amount of cash available for me in my UK accounts ... I sincerely hope this would bring a better future!
  3. This guy made a post of things that are already "well known" (for many people) yet as an economist he is advising people why gambling and mainly sports betting is simply not worth it - read it here: http://www.biasharainsight.com/2016/06/you-cant-make-money-in-sports-betting/
  4. 13th of June 2017 - Decided to STOP

    By gambling we lose both time and treasure: 2 things most precious to the life of man.
  5. Bet365 doesn't like to pay winners even if their bets are 100% legitimate and their accounts is genuine and fully verified: https://www.theguardian.com/sport/2016/jun/28/bet365-legal-action-delay-paying-punter-54000 And on the same time here's another annoying story but this time ended nicely: https://www.theguardian.com/sport/2014/jan/01/betfred-pay-punter-40000-dispute-bet?CMP=share_btn_tw Annoying? Definitely. As Sean Bean says in the movie Ca$h (2010) "When it comes to cash no one can be trusted".
  6. 16th of May 2017 - Back to Square #1

    So I haven't said much recently but being honest I did gamble in the past few months, and I was up and down .. I tried to bet in so many systems, in "small" amounts (not like 2016), where I risked £100 - £800 per bet ... Eventually taking the losses from the London trip into account then I'm around £82.00 losses and that's excluding the Vegas bet I placed in January, so I could say I am "up" $800 for the year 2017 but taking 2016 and all my gambling life into account I'm in a heavy losses from gambling, and not only monetary losses. My last bet was today £310 on the NBA, under 213.5 at halftime in game 7 between Boston and Washington, didn't work out as "planned". Although this time I wasn't risking "large amounts" like before (but don't get me wrong, a £300 bet is not a small amount neither) - I am realizing more and more that after so many "attempts" to make money from gambling it's simply difficult - and my approach wasn't an approach of let's try my luck ... I tried to analyze games, look at stats, try different trends etc. - it's just not working because it's not designed to work ... it's designed to create a disaster for anyone dealing with it. I've limited my ability to deposit large amounts due to termination of Skrill and Neteller accounts (I spoke about it in 2016), and the more I realize this the more I get to learn how gambling is not profitable and even if it is - it comes with so many bad side effects (e.g. isolation, depression, rapid change of mood, laziness and more). Now how can I kick this thing away from my life for good?!
  7. 16th of May 2017 - Back to Square #1

    I haven't responded to your post from a week ago simply because I was debating with myself how to approach this. Surprisingly I also won a few bets, and lost a few as well but the ones with bigger stakes were winning bets - only NBA bets, some winning/losing bets were Tennis, one WNBA bet yesterday. I am not sure what to say because after losing £100 on the WNBA yesterday (I tried the "buy low sell high" approach which failed), I didn't feel like I need to chase the losses, I just took the loss with understanding that's what gambling is. Do I feel like everything is under control? Absolutely not ... still, with good evaluation of how my life is right now - I don't like it ... right now the business is not dong well - and it's not because of gambling - but because my business partner doesn't do much - it's annoying because I don't feel like I have stability like before (I still have sources of income but I just don't like the current situation) .... I'm feeling a bit numb about the whole thing, I haven't placed bets for over £1,200 and most of my bets were for £100 - £400 which are "small" amounts in comparison to 2016. I've realized even if I'm 10000% "sure" of something you should never bet a large amount on it just like I did with Brexit and with other NBA games last year (e.g. risking £6,000 on one single NBA game, that's absurd).... But on the same time I'd like to kick this thing out of my life, I want to go to the gym, to be more active, to have 0% in my life for gambling if I could ... to be busy in a successful business, to work, take care of the family, improve our lives, I honestly don't feel like gambling has contributed anything in that aspect. So yes - got some extra "cash" from all these bets but it's available now, next bet it could all be gone .... gambling cannot provide a solid income, it's not solid and it is based on randomness, and that element of randomness cannot be taken away from its very core and basic fundamentals ... is it a good habit? I honestly don't think so. So that's all I can tell you ... we might be winning today, but who knows what would happen the next day, week, month, year or even a century! Also the word "winning" is not purely "winning" - it's money taken from someone else ... I'm not happy about all this but I know how difficult that is to get rid of it. and looks like I'm giving up on my last attempt to stop using energetic treatment, it's just not working - or perhaps I can say it has worked for a while but honestly it was the big loss (after Brexit) that has driven me to stop ... and I cut more and more access to funds so I couldn't gamble with large amounts, so I think the best "treatment" is you working with your head and your own resources and either limiting this or at least mitigating the potential damage. Good luck.
  8. A Scotland international footballer has taken the extraordinary step of banning himself from a chain of bookies because of a gambling addiction. Read more here: http://www.dailyrecord.co.uk/news/scottish-news/scotland-star-begs-bookies-ban-10325169
  9. Dreaming of winning the jackpot online? Think again - this is what you possibly would get once you win big: https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/3452335/punter-told-he-had-won-nearly-200k-left-gutted-when-bookies-refused-to-pay-out/ Gambling is good for the people running/hosting it, period.
  10. 16th of May 2017 - Back to Square #1

    Thanks for coming by. No, I haven't told her about it, mainly because the final "outcome" of all this is "meaningless" financially speaking but you're right - the search for isolation when gambling is definitely bad. What about you? How are you doing so far?
  11. 14th of May 2017 - NBA WCF Game 1 - Injury

    Remember there is a link I posted here to Gambling Facts & Fictions? If you read through there, you would see Stephen Katz says: Key players get hurt on teams all the time and enough of the time the team may win anyway because the other players on the team step-up and actually play better for awhile. Teams that never won before on a muddy field can suddenly win on a muddy field. All of the new information along with your hunches, intuitions and feelings about a given game are all meaningless betting against a bookie. It does not matter whether you studiously analyzed all of the stats and trends then came up with some conclusion or whether you just feel lucky. In the long-run you will always lose money and in the short-run also if betting on enough games. And according to the media that is the key moment that changed the outcome of Game 1 ... and note SA with their coach Popovich has gone 316-0 wins when leading 25+ points in a game - this broke the record tonight: Now, Don't get me wrong - I don't believe media hypes and I am not sure if that's the moment that changed everything or not, but on the other hand I certainly don't think Kawhi Leonard was making a show - he seriously got injured and it hurts and I wish him well. The reason I brought this up is because I wanted to demonstrate how valuable and true is what Katz's saying ... nobody can foresee such incidents in advance, and they don't always have big impact - and of course normally these incidents don't happen .... However, I've always held mixed feelings about this - on the one hand I do agree with Katz and predicting results is not something that can be done without understanding the randomness involved - nonetheless I do honestly believe as I mentioned many times in this forum that the "NBA is Rigged". And yes, the NBA is rigged, it is rigged, I believe it is rigged 100% ... and because of that I do think there are some "betting opportunities" for those who want to take them - but is it worth it? Is it worth getting into it? Is it ethically 100% okay? I would hesitate with the "yes" answer based not only on my own experience but on the very nature of gambling - it isolates the gambler so badly and making him feel in utopian world of his own ... perhaps these kind of "drugs" are good for just a few hours say you want to take your mind off something but long term (i.e. anything over a few hours) is a recipe for disaster or for bad life or at most "mixed life" - and does anyone want to get into it? So again - I have my own view of gambling and how I look at it ... and I mentioned before it is a bad habit.... however no one can dispute the fact the NBA is rigged and if someone wants to exploit it (e.g. buy low, sell high ... look for change of patterns, live betting on over/under where the line is 40 points away from the original line or what's not) .... it could be done, but the element of randomness would always be there, and it is part of it (as one told me once - gambling is like an art for a sports bettor) .... But ask yourself is it worth getting into it? The system is designed to make sure you lose in the end anyway ... so even if you disagree with Katz's ruling here: You must understand that even if the vastly remote, basically impossible chance existed that you were a bit smarter than the Las Vegas oddsmakers, you would still lose anyway because of the house edge. Your bankroll would still get ground out. But get back to reality. The chance of you being smarter than the Las Vegas bookies or the local illegal bookies who get their odds from Las Vegas, to overcome the house edge, just simply is not going to be possible. So forget about it! In the end of the day I would agree with him - I mean even a unique person, one of a kind, would somehow find out how to exploit American (or other) sports - this is still one of the worst ways to make money, period .... so it's better to focus on something else, because gambling or sports betting is simply not worth it, it's not.
  12. Check them out here: http://marriagemissions.com/about-us-2/14-questions-every-gambler-should-ask/
  13. Gambling Facts & Fictions

    I strongly recommend to read this book or at least the website created by the author containing some important pages from the book itself: http://www.gamblingfactsandfictions.com/ It contains invaluable information, so I do find it as an extremely helpful source for problem gamblers.
  14. This went quite viral ... you can read it all here: https://www.vsin.com/mystery-foul-by-green-meant-something-to-some-bettors/ And here too see the video: Yes, the NBA can "fix" outcomes, it wasn't only spread but total too and more (half time was 213-214). Am I shocked? No but I've never expected this to be so obvious in front of millions watching.
  15. Husband addicted to gambling - Need advice!!

    What types of forms of gambling is he addicted to? offline or online?
  16. 21st of April 2017 - Birthday coming up soon

    Well, the 13th of March which was only a month ago when I wrote the last post, seems like history now ... have I managed to stop gambling completely? No ... unfortunately not ... and since I started this website on January 2014 (over 3 years ago) it seems like I might have to accept the fact that I cannot stay away from gambling 100% of the times but I need to strive to do my best to stay away ... since my last trip to London it seems like I haven't completely stopped this "cycle" that started then. So after supposedly giving up on bonus hunting I used Vulkanbet and got from $1,000 to $3,100 using an NBA bet initially and then many "small" bets ... it seems like betting on Tennis that match will not be scoreless from either player works most of the times but again - it has failed a few times, and yesterday I lost a big chunk of the profits due to betting on Murray to win Ramos mainly in live for really small odds when he was leading 4-2 in the 3rd set, and Murray lost the match ... and I knew who Ramos is and I know he's a great Clay player ... and seems to be at the top of his Tennis Career now .... anyway ... betting on the winner instead of the non-scoreless bet (got to 1.50 at the beginning of the 3rd set) creates mix thoughts in my mind: On the one hand I feel I should have sticked to what I did and never bet on winners even if it feels like a "sure thing" ... BUT on the other hand - really it doesn't matter if I had to bet with a "plan" or a "system" - I don't think dealing with all this is worth it ... and the fact I had to conceal many things or isolate myself as if this thing is something I have to do alone without anyone bothering me - this won't lead to anything good. Financially speaking I made a withdrawal so with all these so called "profits" I am in net profit for 2017 instead of being in a loss - but still ... how long would it last? Right now I feel like I do want to bet and I can't as I blocked myself for 7 days from Vulkanbet - but will this cycle repeat itself again? I can ask them to permanently close my account but then I would just look for the next *****bet website?! I had the determination to block myself for good, now I'm feeling a bit sucked into the world of gambling again, and to be honest I have no plans to bet on anything ... just want to place a bet ... it's like drugs and I have to shake them off somehow.
  17. My best way to stop gambling

    What helped me to stop gambling was the recognition that Gambling responsibly is a myth, it doesn't exist - as well as the recognition that Gambling is not a form of entertainment !! I used to think that I can gamble responsibly, control my balance, and "enjoy" it, but that is what the gambling industry wants you to believe. Bookmakers have websites (and shops) including signs and webpages discuss "Gambling within your means" and suggest you "tips" and ideas how to control your gambling, such as "never bet more than you can afford" and other suggestions - so I would tell you "never bet at all !!!" - don't tell yourself "never bet more than you can afford", that's an illusion, a lie, fraud and deception! Don't believe the gambling industry, don't believe what they tell you. Let's take Ladbrokes for example, discussing their "Responsible Gambling": http://help.ladbrokes.com/display/4/kb/article.aspx?aid=1077 They mention 4 ideas for "Staying in control", so according to them: Gambling should be entertaining and not seen as a way of making money Avoid chasing losses Only gamble what you can afford to lose Keep track of the time and amount you spend gambling So what do I really think about these 4 ideas? Gambling should be entertaining and not seen as a way of making money - Gambling is NOT entertaining in anyway, and it's the perfect way to lose your time and money, hard earned money, in a split of seconds (or more) to an industry that would do anything to get its hands on your hard earned money, and once it gets it, it would never ever give it back to you. Avoid chasing losses - Avoid betting at all! Don't bet at all and you would never find yourself chasing losses. In fact, I've stopped gambling and that is how I really avoided chasing losses. You need to understand they use these words on purporse to lure you back into gambling, they won't stop you from chasing losses, on the contrary! They will smile everytime you do so ... so by all means don't bet at all ... by not betting you're not only avoiding "chasing losses" but you're not getting into it in the first place! Only gamble what you can afford to lose - How would you feel if I tell you "only give me what you can afford?" you would throw me off the stairs, would you? You don't know me, you don't need to give your hard earned money to me ... so why are you giving your hard earned money to the gambling industry? You should tell yourself "only donate what you can afford" for charity, for the right purposes ... but you should definitely not gamble, not even once, because once you start - you cannot stop your losses, and you can end up losing more than you can afford, and that's a guarantee! So don't listen to them ... they tell you "yes, you can gamble, but watch how much you spend" - I tell you instead, do not gamble, not even once more! Keep track of the time and amount you spend gambling - Now that's ridiculous! They want you to "work" for them?! Seriously, you need to spend the time preparing tables and timetable sheets for you to recognize how much time you dedicate to gambling? Besides handing your hard earned money to the gambling industry, why don't you give them a hug as well? That is so ridiculuos - don't gamble, don't bet, you would have plenty of free time for you to spend with your family and friends, you would have more money in your bank, and you wouldn't waste time doing what the gambling industry suggests you to do, which is so ridiculous. The Rambam was a great Jewish Rabbi, he was a very famous person and people from all over the world studied and study his books, including many universities and the academy in general who uses his texts for many purposes. He said if a person has a problem he should not take the middle way but the extreme way. For example, if someone has eating disorders and he can't stop eating, he should not tell himself "I can control it" and try to eat moderately - instead, he should do all it takes, put barriers, use his family and any other means for him to stop eating and AVOID THE OPTION of eating. Same way about gambling, you should do everything you with your means (and even more) to stop. You should not even buy a lottery ticket in your condition, you should take the EXTREME way for staying outside of the gambling world. Now if you ask me, I wouldn't call it the extreme way but the sane, logical and normal way of living your life ... however if you are here reading this then what I say is for you, not for anyone else - so please do not tell yourself you can control it, don't ever use this hype, don't ever tell your mind to think this way - do all that it takes to treat gambling as something you hate, despise and that way you would stop gambling. Treat gambling as a "friend" or as a form of "entertainment" - and you would lose, big time, money and time, and you could lose plenty of those in the long run! Gambling is not your friend and is not a form of entertainment! It should never be approached this way. Gambling is a way for bookmakers and the gambling industry to take money from you, pure and simple. I hope you can understand this so you can have a better journey in life. Be well.
  18. I was getting some bonuses with this website called Vulkanbet as I described it previously, they do have lots of technical problems and it takes them a long time to settle bets sometimes and also to sort out issues such as bets not showing up in betting history etc. Eventually I decided to go "all or nothing" with the $223 that was in a PBA-D league basketball game - and I've lost it ... and instead of keep betting $200 all the times on low odds where in a Tennis match there won't be any 6:0 or 0:6 I've just given up. Next thing I did - was self exclusion for 2 years, and I'm not sorry for doing it. I think I shouldn't allow gambling to be in my life in any way whatsoever, I mean by all means, all means whatsoever - and the fact I was 'bonus hunting' with this 'system' (that can fail anytime and in fact I tried to bet on a match but previous bet wasn't settled - if I did I would have lost it earlier)... Overall instead of losing $400 this year (excluding that Vegas bet) I lost $500 this year approx. - and it's okay, I tried .. for the 1000th time again and even if I had more patience or I don't know what - remember this guy? I don't want to be like him, I don't want to live in an illusion that I could make money from gambling - this guy made profits for like 7 years and lost over 50% of it in less than 1 year! I'm telling you - life isn't worth it, big or small, it's not worth it... I hope to stay strong and going to get another treatment to make sure it's all behind me ... next time I'm traveling to the UK then I will surely make sure my wife is with me or someone else - so this won't occur again, because this round started from there - it didn't end so "badly" this time but I wanna make sure it remains like this!
  19. Life ended whet I started

    Sorry about that, I wasn't aware this type of professional helps you. Well, I think in that case you might want to block access to funds or to gambling - for me blocking any way of depositing or gambling helped me a lot - this is how you can beat this addiction - by arresting it - so in another words, relying on your therapist is one thing and it's good but you should rely on yourself not being able to bet - and then life can improve by such a large scale, I'm telling you this from my very own personal experience. Thanks for checking back btw.
  20. Life ended whet I started

    I'm not sure if this is a genuine story or if you wanted to promote some tattoos - however if this story is real I have to ask why do you consult with your doctor and not with someone who has much better insight on gambling in the first place? A doctor is good to prescribe you some medications, there are many other ways to stop gambling, a doctor is definitely not the right way if you ask me.
  21. 5th of March 2017 - Life goes on

    The past week has been terrible, I've been sick, got a stomach flu or something like that ... had sleepless nights, lots of pain, ended up in the ER (aka A&E in the UK = Accident & Emergency) .. spent 3-4 hours and got slightly better - still recovering though, it's not easy for the body to heal itself 100% right afterwards - And I got a very good signal from all this that I have to start exercising and move my body, sitting in front of the computer is bad (even though a stomach bug is caused usually by eating bad food, still ... having a healthier body can always help in cases like these or others!) In regards to gambling ... In my last post I was saying I was in a loss of $555 for the year, so eventually one of the websites I was using that allowed me to deposit around £620 should have had me permanent self excluded, and I did after this loss asked for a 1 year SE and when they told me it was already permanent since 2014 I asked how I was allowed to deposit in the first place - so without exchanging any further emails they got back to me, telling me I was right and they refunded my deposits (less deposit fee of 2.5%) - so I got back £600+ to my bank pretty instantly, wasn't involved with any hassles or anything - so it's important for websites to honor and respect their self exclusion policies, this is being regulated in many places! I started last week to bet with a website called Vulkanbet, they do give lots of bonuses but not in the classic way of you depositing and then get the same amount and have to wager it several times - it's like if you bet certain amounts they add $1, then $2 to your account - based on your activity, a bit different than regular stuff in some way because it's not so addicting on the one hand but on the other you make "peanuts money" out of it ... I made so far £70 because I used a card that charged me tons of fees and I will make sure not to do this again, also it doesn't work in £ currency, so I have to exchange it to $ but it's okay so far .... do I think it's okay to keep having this account? not sure but I know with sites like this I will never ever deposit large amounts - I just don't trust small sites and I know they are limited so I I will see how it goes.... There is an option to self exclude yourself for 1 week everytime you need it, with a click of a button, no need to call anyone ... or for up to 5 years, so it seems to work okay but ... I don't know, I will see. Right now my total losses end up as £325 approx. which is $400 - that excluding that first NBA win from Vegas, so it seems like I'm up $510 for the year 2017 so far .... but that is all because of this site refunding my losses really .. gambling is not worth it and look what happens if I just took 1 bet - how quickly it could put me in a spiral etc. Looks like for future cases I would need stronger fences/barriers for sure.
  22. 5th of March 2017 - Life goes on

    Not from meetings but from reading a lot about the subject. I don't think gambling is something that anyone can underestimate - it's not your "friend" and not a habit - it's just a way to lose money .. you could do "arbitrage" or grab bonuses like I did without risking real money really - but is it worth it? Is it worth dealing with a gambling site just to make peanuts money in return? I really doubt it ... I do however treat people who do arbitrage differently, I know one person who does it for living - his income is coming solely from arbitrage and arbitrage is ok, it's something bookmakers hate because it's quite the opposite of gambling - it's taking the randomness out and getting 100% pure stability with the actions that you make. But I doubt it about myself ... dealing with a gambling site is not for me, so i will make sure it will be extremely limited and will report accordingly after a few more days if it's worth it, how much time it takes etc. - worse case I'm just going to hit the shut down button i.e. aka = Self Exclusion and leave the site as well ... but yes, I do admit arbitrage is a different form of gambling - it's where the punter has an edge over the house because he doesn't really gamble but risk money to get "sure money" back regardless of the outcome. Anyway - back to your questions - I can't underestimate what gambling caused me in life, and that's why I don't think arbitrage or any other similar form of gambling is good for everyone ... some people like us need fences and barriers to stay away as far as possible from it because we know money "earned" from gambling is money with a curse on it, in one way or another - but whatever I say can be open for discussion or for negating claims as well.
  23. Life is a mess

    Hi Hayley07, I think the best practical thing you can do in this stage is to let go of the control of your finances - i.e. let your girlfriend control your finances - so whenever you get paid you won't have any ACCESS to the money but she would instead (and if you don't trust her then do it with your parents/siblings etc. although it sounds you love her and trust her, and the trust issues come from you). You cannot allow yourself to get money because you would spend it - if you arrest the addiction then you won't be able to gamble, at least not without cash in your hands, right? (or debit/credit card or whatever it is that you have). Also spending money on slots is the worst form of gambling out there - but sportsbetting is the same bad concept, it's just not risking money on really poor odds, but either way gambling itself is bad - but you know that already and agree with that - you just can't control something that got a control over you. That's why if you won't have access to your next paycheck and would allow your spouse (or future spouse or relatives) to control this on your behalf - then you won't be able to waste this money anymore - you have to do this if you ask me, it's just so mandatory - otherwise you would find yourself dealing with a vicious cycle ... start by letting go of the control of your finances, then move on with some therapies later on (there are so many but first clean your mind). Good luck!
  24. 21st of February 2017 - I was hit by gambling

    I haven't posted an update here for quite a while and it's for the very main reason that life has been super busy for me, it really was. On top of everything that I already need to take care of I found myself dealing with so many new things that I wasn't expecting to deal with - and it s taking lots of my time, but it's fine and I'm happy with that nonetheless. I was in Vegas for a business trip last month in January, the business trip was good, didn't do anything stupid in general - except ... that I did place a bet ..... $1000 ($1013 with ATM fees) to win $910 ... and I was with my business partner there - I told him about it - anyway long story short ... I made around $900 ... now I thought it was all fine, I cannot place bets at home so I allowed myself to indulge once and place a bet on the NBA. A month later I had another business trip in the UK, this one was much packed with lots to do in 48 hours ... and long story short I placed a £1,000 bet on Tennis on a player that I just liked by his name (£1,000 to win £570 approx) - bet lost ... I felt so ruined and took some cash using my credit cards in order to accumulate £2,000 approx to bet on odds of 1.50 on another Tennis game and this time I won the lost £1,000 back except that part of the bet was on odds of 1.44 so I felt the need to make more than I lost. Long story short, I am in a loss of around -$555 for 2017. After calculating all fees etc. I can live with the loss but I cannot live with the fact I brought gambling back into my life and it's so easy to bring it back - now after not having Skrill or Neteller I can only deposit with bank wires .... Anyway I definitely don't want to stay on this path and leave it behind me, so I made sure I am not leaving funds in my UK Bank Accounts so I can't wire anything and bet with - I think this is the best way to avoid gambling as without having a UK Bank Account it would be harder to bet (although I can wire from anywhere but I won't do it from my local accounts neither) - it's good in a way to avoid having access to money - this way it's much harder to bet and it does arrest the addiction in some way. Can I only rely on it? No ... of course not ... I will schedule another appointment and see where things go - for now life is all great and I want to keep it that way. Besides with such a busy schedule I really can't leave no more room for gambling in my life.